I walk every day. It is partially for physical reasons, partially for spiritual and emotional reasons and partially because my dog is addicted and will not let me do otherwise. She does not understand the concept of a day off from walking or rain or hot or cold. So, we walk.
Sometimes when I walk, I listen to silence. Sometimes, I listen to podcasts. Sometimes, I listen to Christian music. I can always get a soul-read on myself by paying attention to what I listen to. Lately, my soul has been thirsty only for music.
I’ve needed the music of my faith to guide me, to anchor me, to answer my prayers, to provide leadership to me in these trying times.
Our world is in conflict. Our country is in conflict. Our political system is in conflict. Many of our churches are in conflict. We are craving leadership, but who can we trust?
Sometimes I think it might just be me. Maybe I’m interpreting “how things are” in an overly negative way. This morning however, even my local newspaper had a picture of the events of the weekend along with the headline “A Nightmare Scenario”. Maybe it’s not just me.
I also know people who are personally going through difficult and trying times. They are living nightmares they did not choose to be in. Other people, myself included, are just riding out normal life rites of passage that are not easy.
All these reasons are causing me to drink in the songs of my faith.
Everyone seems to be calling for statements, guidance and reassurance. I’ve tried to imagine if I had to issue some kind of statement right now, what it would be. No words seem adequate for all that is happening.
So, instead of issuing statements, I pray, for all of the above.
God, your ways are higher than my ways. You see all things and you know the layers, the complications, the history of all.
Help me now to be a loving, light-bearing citizen of this planet, this country, my family and friendship circles. Remind me again of what Jesus said, “In this world you will have trouble…but, take heart, I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
God, have you overcome hate? Because it seems to still live here. I don’t want it to live in me, but it does. Have you overcome racism? I see it and feel it and know it lives in me as well. I know darkness lives in our systems and that I’m a part of those sick systems. Have you overcome disease? Because it still seems to be attacking people I care about.
It feels like too much. It feels like more than my heart can bear. It feels out of control and wrong.
And so I lift it all to your Light and ask that you guide my feet, my actions, my words.
This morning, on my walk, your song penetrated me, “Peace, peace be still. And like a child my heart obeys.” Infuse peace into my heart, O God. Give me an iv of it if you have to…not the kind of peace the world gives, rather, your kind. These nightmare days require your supernatural peace. I know I absolutely need it. Amen